AW has been coming up to me to talk all month. Telling me all the things I’m not restating what my EH has done to me and how I should feel, every time she comes to pick up the kids. I’ve remained quiet saying only what I needed to, but no matter how much I’ve tried to avoid her I can’t so I’ve learned to embrace each storm.
*Matt 5:39 I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also.*
Even though I have come to love exactly who my HF made me to be I must say that AW does have some pretty amazing gifts that I do not possess which made me second guess my position as my kid’s mother and my eh’s wife until I went to my love and asked him how to overcome any doubts.
Today my HH taught me after another encounter with her that I am virtuous and he made me different so I don’t have to compare all I have to do is fill in Proverbs 31;10-31 out based on my gifts and who I am as a person.
Example :
“Who can find an Alisea For her worth is far above rubies.
The heart of her husband safely trusts her; So he will have no lack of gain.
She does him good by not evil All the days of her life.
She seeks BOGOS and COUPONS And willingly works BY CHANGING HER CARS OIL WITH HER OWN HANDS.
She is like the EXTREME COUPONERS, She brings her food from TRADER JOES.
She also rises while it is yet night TO READ HER BOOKS, And SHE provides HEALTHY food for her household, And a portion for her NEIGHBORS WHEN SHE HAS LEFTOVERS.
She considers a DEAL and buys it; From her FRUITS she plants SEED IN THE YARD
. She goes to the YMCA herself with strength, And the body pump class strengthens her arms.
She perceives that her poetry is good, And her lamp does not go out by night because she is still reading.
She stretches out her hands to the praise, And her hand holds her children as they play in the rain.
She extends her hand to the poor, Yes, she reaches out her hands to the needy.
She is not afraid of snow because she moved from Ohio to Florida so now the household is clothed with summer clothes.
She finds a tapestry for herself at the GOODWILL Her clothing is fine linen and purple.
Her husband is known in the gates When he sits among the elders of the land.
She WILL make linen garments and sells them After she finishes all the sewing classes at the library she supplies books for the wives/younger women. She has Strength in her vulnerability and her honesty is honored like the colors on her clothing;
She shall rejoice in time to come because GOD is her HH and he doesn’t lie.
She opens her mouth with wisdom from what she’s learned And on her tongue is the law of kindness or she REMAINS SILENT.
She watches over the ways of her household, And does not eat the bread of idleness even though she likes naps!
Her children rise up and call her mommy and ask to feel her squishy tummy; Her husband also has always said she was a great mother and wife and he praises her: “Many other women have great gifts that I don’t possess, But for my family, my gifts that my HH gave me to help them excel them all.” Charm is deceitful and It will be exposed and beauty only lasts for a moment, But alisea is a woman who fears the Lord, she shall be praised. Give her of the fruit of her hands, And let her own (family) praise her in the gates.”
— Proverbs 31:10-31