Take His Hand

Our Beloved can help you heal even after the worse tragedies. This week is the anniversary of my mother’s death. She passed away when I was an adolescent. She died suddenly and tragically in a car accident that I was also involved in.

I survived, she didn’t. That was a hard concept for me to comprehend and I always held on to that hurt. That whole part of my life was such a blur. The doctors had me on so many suppressive medications that it numbed my mind and my pain. Even right before I attended her funeral the doctors gave me sedatives so that I would not be fully aware. They were afraid that I would have a heart attack from grief because of the injuries sustained in the accident. I never really went through the emotions like I needed to, I didn't grieve.

As the years went on, I suppressed those feelings of pain and heartbreak. I didn't realize it until later that it had made me a very angry and bitter person. When I spoke about her death I would push my feelings down and pretend that I was okay as the years went on.

Just a few years back when I found RMI, I realized that I had not healed from that tragic event in my life. Really I had known that for many years but never really knew what to do about it. I was so scared when the Lord revealed to me that I needed to hand that over to Him. I did not want to bring this hurt out again, I did not want to talk about it, I did not want to go through the emotions.

But He was so gracious to me and helped me take His hand as I cried and felt the real pain for probably the first time, the excruciating pain of losing my mother at such a young age and so tragically. I needed to go through the emotions, I needed to ask God questions and I did. I didn't get the answers to everything, but what He gave me was peace and love and comfort.

We don't always find out the answers to all our questions but what we do have is a Good Father, a Loving Husband that knows our hurts and sorrows and He wants to sit with us, holding us, loving us and consoling us. We don't see what He sees but we can be rest assured that He has the best plans for our lives. I promise you that He can heal you if you allow Him in and I know its not easy and I am still a work in progress but He is there to be with you every step of the way! So I'm here to praise and thank the Lord for the time that He did give me with my mother and for healing that part of my heart that was so broken for so many years!

“I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace. In the world you have tribulation and distress and suffering, but be courageous [be confident, be undaunted, be filled with joy]; I have overcome the world.” [My conquest is accomplished, My victory abiding.]“ John 16:33

“And His name shall be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.” Isaiah 9:6