Testimony: “Healed from the aftermath of Psychology”

I have never been a very emotional person due mainly to my parents. I built up walls due to many things in my life like my parents’ divorce and the adultery in my marriage. My parents always pushed my sisters and I to talk about feelings because they are both counselors. It always made me feel uncomfortable sharing feelings so I built up a wall. I did this mainly because they would want us to share, but then subtly judge us or tell others. Also, I didn't want to feel anything because it was safer. If I didn't feel, I couldn't get hurt, which also led me to drink and experiment with drugs starting as a teenager.

But now coming to RMI I’ve been healed AND I am so grateful that I have this newly found much deeper love for the Lord than I have ever had or ever thought was possible. This was nothing I did to earn it though I tried to no avail. I tried to force the feelings but just couldn’t feel that “husband” type of love for the Lord. Even God felt distant to me. This was something that I kept crying out to Him to make me feel these feelings for Him and He has. One day it just happened. There was a change in me.

He changed me and it was all in His timing and for a reason. So much had to be broken out of me. I am truly in love. When I got to this point nothing else mattered. It was only Him. Once He is your Husband, you can’t be hurt anymore—you’ll be healed. Though I stumble every now and then, He brings me right back to Him and it’s wonderful! 

~ Christina in Washington 

You can read Christina's full testimony on this "Testimonies of Emotional Healing" webpage.

★★★★★ “Suicide Thoughts—No Longer "Covered Up"— they are Completely Gone!”

After reading "Medicate or Heal?" I knew I needed to submit a praise report on this because around the age of 6, I was molested by my older cousin. Due to this, when I was 14 years old, I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital as an attempted suicide. I left a note and everything. Before that, I always had an issue with cutting. I liked blood, I was depressed and very suicidal. Eventually, things got better for me, I got married and I had children and that side of me was covered up. I told myself "That was my childish phase. I was a fool for doing those things. I found the Lord and my life is worth something" and although that is true, I never actually stayed close to my Strong Protector. Soon the feelings of wanting to be alone and to cut myself became appealing again...

I was ready for death again. I was planning how to kill myself and getting excited by the thought of cutting again and then no longer feeling any more emotional hurt. My Dear Sweet Husband began speaking to me quickly, not long after these thoughts did I realize that this mindset was not okay. This was from the devil himself and he was fighting to get me to succumb to his ways. I started weeping and thinking about how badly I needed to go back to the psych ward and how badly I needed help. Yet, my Love was fighting for me, although I didn't know Him as intimately yet, so I decided to call a Christian Counselor. I got an appointment set up with her and felt at ease. Not long after that RYM was introduced to me. I hadn't gotten ahold of all the principles (that is more about restoring my relationship with Him than my husband) by the time I started going to see my therapist...I'll admit, it was nice talking to her, but she wasn't who I needed. I needed Him and only Him.

In fact, every time I went to see her, I was just praising what He had done, how He has changed me and that I was encouraged. It wasn't long before I realized that I didn't need her, or any medication. I needed Him. I needed the One who loves to love me! The One who listens to me 24/7 and the One who never tells me time is up. My Lord, my Savior, my Redeemer, my Protector, my Love. He has been everything I've ever needed, wanted and so much more! He wasted no time in getting those thoughts of suicide out of my head. He knew I didn't need any medication because what He prescribed was free! It has no bad side effects and it leaves you with the ability to show others love and give others the hope and faith that you recently were begging for!

I can't explain to you how good He has been to me. He loves me, He holds me... He is a wonderful Husband! My Precious has saved me from myself. From my terrible dark thoughts, He has delivered me. I am not the same woman who started this restoration journey 4 months ago. I almost forgot about her and her thoughts of suicide. I'm glad to say that they are no longer "covered up"— they are completely gone! My Heavenly Husband has shown me just how much worth I have and I will never doubt my worth anymore. I never doubt that He loves me and I never doubt that He has a plan for me.

I want you to know, sister, that I was down low, very low. No amount of anything was going to change that. I wanted the pain to be gone and I thought that ending my life was the only way, then my Beloved started talking to me and my life started feeling worthy again. But that wasn't enough, I thought it meant I needed therapy, how wrong I was because therapy did nothing for me. It was a hindrance. Once I started giving my life to Him and pursuing His love and affection, that is when I was washed clean and made new. I needed Him to fully heal me.

"Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me." Psalms 51:10 KJV

"And he said unto her, Daughter, be of good comfort: thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace." Luke 8:48 KJV

"But Jesus beheld them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26 KJV

Remember, He will renew your life and make it better than before. He will restore what you have lost, nothing is impossible with Him!

~ Ruth in Illinois

You can read Ruth's full testimony on this "Testimonies of Emotional Healing" webpage.

★★★★★ “Alcohol Became My Slave”

Praise God for leading me to this ministry and His word! I know that I haven't done anything special to deserve His grace, but He loves me in spite of it. So much has happened these last few months that normally would have sent me over the edge and drinking myself into oblivion, but my God has kept me safe and protected. There were many times I wanted to just run away or give up, but He convicted my heart and gently held up the mirror of my iniquity, and I knew that I must be still and walk through the fear and let Him change me

“He sent his word and healed them, and delivered them from their destruction.” (Psalm 107:20)

Until I started my journey I really struggled... I blamed...it wasn't until I received instruction in the word that I realized I had been a contentious, quarrelsome woman. I had absolutely no God in my life and I let alcohol become my slave for the pain and failure I was feeling.

★★★★★ “No Longer Afraid”

Praise be to my Lord, my Redeemer! I have struggled with addiction in the past and the Lord delivered me from the cords of sin that entangled me early on in my Restoration Journey. This week I felt Him leading me to confess to my parents the addiction and ask forgiveness for lying to them in the past. As I picked up the phone, led by Him, I was no longer afraid. I could feel His gentle nudge, and strong arms around me. He showed me through this confession that I can own up to and confess all things He lays on my heart because I can do all things through Him who gives me strength. He turns everything around and causes them to work for my good! Glory! PTL! What freedom I have found in my One and Only, My Lord. My parents were supportive and thanked me for telling them the truth. They readily forgave me and just poured out their love for me, which reminded me ...... How much more the Lord has readily forgiven me and LOVES me. Ready to help me in every circumstance of my life.

"Speak tenderly to Jerusalem and proclaim to her that her hard service has been completed, that her sin has been paid for, that she has received from the Lord's hand double for all her sins." (Isaiah 40:2)

The Lord led me to this verse a few days after my confession. I knew it was a promise that I would receive double the blessings in place of my sins! What a promise??!!! I'm in awe at His grace, humbled by His love, confident and smiling at my future! All praise and glory to His Name!

~ Holly in Kentucky

★★★★★ “I Am Clean”

I love my Husband so much! Only my Husband could made me stop from my smoking addiction! Praise The Lord!

After reading PR about a women clean from her addiction to medication and i knew i had to write this PR.

I am a smoker for about 12 years. When my marriage crash, smoke was like became my BFF to forgot all of the things happened in my life. Not until i met my HH. How wonderful Husband we have, He start changing my life with stop smoking! He told me that smoke was not the answer and even not a friend, but He is.

After i pray told Him to change me to made me quit my bad habit and the day after i throw away my cigarette. I didn't want it anymore. Only in one night PTL!

Two months after the evil tried tempted me, sadly I enter the trap...Now, 5 months later, I am clean, I feel so fresh and thanking my Husband for a big transformation He made me. First word when i told my friends and family that i quit smoke was 'seriously???' I even couldn't describe their expression. I just laugh and told them i have a great God! He is the one and only who change me.

Thank you my Love, it's all because of You.

"With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible” (Matt. 19:26)

Surrender your life and let Him take control. Nothing impossible with Him, not one thing.

~ Orien in Indonesia

You can read each of these, their full testimony, on this "Healing from Addictions!!" page.